d0nt kn0w larhs. so long haven't blog. so many problems on my mind, so many tasks not completed. Telephone ringing the whole day long, as my bro just made a friend who sucks so much. He calls everyday, making me feel so irritated and pissed off. Such a nuisance. My handphone is also ringing and ringing non-stop. Tons of homework piled up on my desk, numerous things not started. Yet all i'm doing is sitting down here and chattin to peeps as though i'm super relaxedd. i don't know anymore. i'm feeling so helpless down here, worried bout my studies but not knowing how to help myself`! ughx. tis jus suck` couldn't believe it when mummy told me nx year school's gonna be only 5 days a weekk. rawkx` i already cant wait for next year to start. Yet, i'm afraid of the future. s0metimes i feel dat i don't want to grow up. Like the literature test i had today, main theme being "the wheel turns: it never stops and stands still" referring to changes around, which never stop changing. Everything is changing, and time doesn't stop for any of us. The problem is that i don't think i'm moving along smoothly. i'm stuckk` struggling. Nobody has any idea of what the future is like. All we can do is go on with life. Who knows what will happen tomorrow, at the next hour, or even next second? Even my moods change drastically. Unsure of what tomorrow brings, i'm so very frightened. Although numerous friendship chain letters i receive everyday, who knows if they the friends might not even be there for you the next day? Diseases are on the rise, and particularly the food we've consumed since Adam and Eve now have been discovered to have all sorts of bacterium, toxic chemicals or so on, making us unsure of what food there might be left the next day. Who knows how we would die? We might even starve to death. As for natural disasters, they are happening more frequently. Singapore is really so damned small, so vulnerable. With war and destruction going on in other countries, the world is such an unsafe place to live in. u might think i'm nonsensical, thinking of all these useless crap. i just feel unsecure. thts all =/where's my patience gone? this modern world, it just might be killing me. t0tally exhausted. [(pondering over stuff again]]*
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